For a Friend.... a good one....

Well we all have our friends, best ones, good ones, ones we just know and ones we would even give our lives for ( excuse the over dramatisation). I was indeed surprised when i was reunited with a friend that i hadn't spoken to for almost 6 years. After our extremely awkward initial conversation, i am very happy to say that we are very good friends indeed, good enough friends to call up each other and say good night, to have conversations till two a.m. and to make fun of each others tastes in partners!!!
Its amazing how much you can find in common with someone who you now cant imagine was not a part of your life for the past so many years.
Well she is getting married and going abroad in 5 months, and i know that i will miss her. I will miss her more than she'll ever know.....
Amaani, this is for you, in case you havent figured it out yet..... being the blonde blob you are... love you.... platonically of course....

On wanting companionship....

Valentines day... sickening i tell you, sickening to the extent that it makes me want to puke, BUT it did get me thinking. Why am i alone, some say that you should enjoy the time you have alone, while others say that you shouldn't worry too much about finding someone cos you eventually will. But for me personally the issue is that i know i will find someone some day but i DONT WANT TO BE ALONE NOW..... its terrible being alone, i miss the affection, i miss loving and being loved, whatever said and done although i know that i have friends around me who care alot, its definitely not the same.
I wonder how long i wll have to be single for, and come to think of it, looking back at how bad the previous relationship ended do i really wanna be in another realationship??? im so afraid of putting back all those emotions again, on trusting someone with my feelings again.
Its all too much to think about, but all i know is that i dont wanna be alone.....