For a Friend.... a good one....

Well we all have our friends, best ones, good ones, ones we just know and ones we would even give our lives for ( excuse the over dramatisation). I was indeed surprised when i was reunited with a friend that i hadn't spoken to for almost 6 years. After our extremely awkward initial conversation, i am very happy to say that we are very good friends indeed, good enough friends to call up each other and say good night, to have conversations till two a.m. and to make fun of each others tastes in partners!!!
Its amazing how much you can find in common with someone who you now cant imagine was not a part of your life for the past so many years.
Well she is getting married and going abroad in 5 months, and i know that i will miss her. I will miss her more than she'll ever know.....
Amaani, this is for you, in case you havent figured it out yet..... being the blonde blob you are... love you.... platonically of course....

On wanting companionship....

Valentines day... sickening i tell you, sickening to the extent that it makes me want to puke, BUT it did get me thinking. Why am i alone, some say that you should enjoy the time you have alone, while others say that you shouldn't worry too much about finding someone cos you eventually will. But for me personally the issue is that i know i will find someone some day but i DONT WANT TO BE ALONE NOW..... its terrible being alone, i miss the affection, i miss loving and being loved, whatever said and done although i know that i have friends around me who care alot, its definitely not the same.
I wonder how long i wll have to be single for, and come to think of it, looking back at how bad the previous relationship ended do i really wanna be in another realationship??? im so afraid of putting back all those emotions again, on trusting someone with my feelings again.
Its all too much to think about, but all i know is that i dont wanna be alone.....

post breakup friend disorder.... or not...

So, how long does it take for two people to become friends after they break up after a relationship? some may say that they could never be friends with someone after a break up, while others say that that they just don't want to be Friends anymore. Personally i have to admit that having been dumped about 8 months ago, following a year long relationship, it took longer than i expected to be normal friends.
And i don't mean the times that you tell your self that "i am her friend only" as an excuse just to get closer to her, knowing all the while that you have unresolved feelings that certainly needed to be sorted out. but really how long does it take? one interesting theory that someone came up with is that it take half the time that you went out with someone, to get over them....
for me, following months of denial and playing mind games with my self, it suddenly dawned on me, "wake the fuck up, she doesn't love you and she's not fucking coming back, DEAL WITH IT" and deal with it i did... i must say just admitting it and actually making an active effort to move on, really does help.... besides we are pretty good friends now, despite all the ugly things that happened....

I have a car

Kim is my friend.
I am Kim's friend.
I have a mo-ped.
Kim has a mo-ped.
Kim has a car.
I have a car.

Ps: Kim also has syphilis.....

God who????

Oh man what a day it has been..... i spend 10,000 bucks getting the bike back into a respectable condition and then it rains on it.... Sigh.. sigh.. SIGH...... isnt there any fairness in life i ask.... maybe its cos God knows i dont believe in him..... maybe.....

PS: To all you gluttons out there, being extra nice to someone, will make them feel obligated to buying you lunch....... from an expensive place.....

of voyeurs and Ache

Well just as i thought, no one has read my Blog.... well cant blame anyone i guess... how are they gonna read something whe they dont even know its there... althought i must admit having to post ones comments on the immense stage of the world wide web is somewhat fulfilling, i dont kno why though.... a close friend of mine said that blogs are a modern day voyeurs tool.... does that make me an exhibitionist?

oh and if you get the chance, listen to "Ache" by James Carrington, Sad little song.